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27 January 2012

Oh My Soul...


There is something special about the human soul.  Although there are many opinions as to what the soul actually entails or represents....most people recognize that there is something within each of us that makes us who we are, that makes us human.

I believe that my soul is a gift.  I believe that my soul was created long before it was placed within this body of mine and that it was hand crafted and shaped and given life by the Creator of all Life.  I have no doubt of this.  

Part of my journey has been the long and seemingly unending path of unexplained infertility.  As is with most struggles in our lives...those that we cannot explain, understand or give a why explanation too can sometimes seem the most despairing.  Things like unexpected cancer in a newborn, or a sudden loss of a loved one can lead to a downward spiral of anger, bitterness and depression that even the strongest people cannot control.  In the midst of my pain and questions I remember finding a peace in the fact that although my heart was broken, and my spirit was laid bare,....my soul remained connected to the Creator, the giver of life.  My soul continued to glorify the Lord.  It seemed to have no choice but to do so.  It was as though my soul belonged to the Lord and even my pain and anguish could not separate it from Him.

I have been listening to the christmas album of Chris Tomlin's since November...at least, and I just can't seem to stop.  One of the songs that he has written on this particular album as a chorus that goes like this...

                 " My soul, my soul magnifies the Lord, my soul magnifies the Lord...
                                     for He has done great things for me, GREAT things for me! "


As I listen to this song and sing along, my spirit rises from within me and my heart rejoices with an overflow of God's truth....that HE IS GOOD and He has done GREAT things for me.  Not just for those around me, but for me too.  

I have not always felt this way, nor could I have sang this song even 3 years ago....but I believe that there is 
                                a time to grieve .... and a time to rejoice
                                a time to cry ..........and a time to smile
                                a time for death ..... and a time for LIFE
                                       and a time for the SOUL to SING.

This is a new song by Tim Hughes (Ecclesiastes)...and it says it all!

23 January 2012

Unspeakable JOY! - (A Submission from Karey Congo)

Hi everyone!  I received an e-mail from a good friend of mine...Karey Congo.  I got to know Karey, Joel and their two beautiful children (Hailey and Sara) at Camp Homewood, where we had the opportunity to live and minister along side them.  Karey sent me an e-mail this past week expressing her desire to share about the journey that they have been on over the past 3 years.  

Karey, Sara, Hailey and Joel Congo




My daughter Sara was born with a heart defect called Ebstein's anomoly. We found out at a routine ultrasound at 24 weeks and they said it might mean a heart transplant. We were sent to the Children's hospital, and she was born early at 35 weeks. On that day, our lives changed. Not only did the world we knew come to a halt, but time seemed to stop because nothing else mattered. We were caught up in the world of hospital life, not knowing how long Sara would be in or even where we'd stay the night! Our home was nine hours away, and fortunately, we had relatives in the area that opened up their home. 
After being in the hospital for 10 days, I asked if I could hold my new baby, there were so many lines off of her little body I thought it would be impossible, but I couldn't wait any longer. My 3 year old daughter Hailey was thrilled, a new baby sister! We all enjoyed cuddles with baby Sara and then rushed out to get Hailey to bed. It wasn't until we got to our truck in the parkade that Hailey said "Where's Sara? I thought she was coming with us!" She paused and looked around, and continued, "She can share my carseat." :) Because we got to hug and cuddle Sara, Hailey thought she must be better, and ready to come home! What a cutie!

We felt so supported by our friends and family, their love and encouragement was amazing, and their prayers were what got us through. God gave us incredible peace, andjoy in little improvements in Sara's health. She spent her first 2 months in the hospital and she had her first heart surgery at 6 weeks old. It wasn't until after our time at the hospital that we began to get to know our little girl. Her older sister was completely delighted! We enjoyed almost 5 months before having to go in for her 2nd surgery. She was in for a month, and this time we knew the routine, and where every place center was by heart! God helped us so much, Sara came so close to going on the heart and lung machine, but recovered to the doctors surprise. Coincidentally, we were able to connect with families we met when Sara was born. 

It's amazing how God puts you in the right place at the right time, God used us many times to pray for others and support them in their journey. There were sometimes when our hearts were broken for others, and many times of joy when we laughed together! Every time God's word brought me joy. Just like in Psalm 5:11,12, "But let all those rejoice who put their trust in You; Let them ever shout for joy, because You defend them; Let those also who love Your name Be joyful in You. For You, O LORD, will bless the righteous; With favour You will surround him as with a shield."

When I think about our lives 3 years ago, I feel like we are at the same place now, sort of. We are at a place of uncertainty, and our situation isn't comfortable, but God is protecting us. My husband's job has changed and my daughter Sara has her 3rd open heart surgery coming up. So far, Sara's managed without a transplant, but it still will be something we'll have to face in the future. All of this gives me that feeling again, and it gets me nervous, and excited at the same time! Like I know good is coming out of it all and I can't wait to see how God reveals it! 

In this time of transition, I've been thinking a lot about where my joy comes from, in good times and in times of trials. I think about the blessing of having joy in my life like my husband, my girls, my horses, my artwork, my friends and family, and these are all so precious to me. They all bring me joy, and I am so blessed! But I find that God is always turning me back to himself! In all of those blessings not one will bring me lasting joy, thejoy of the Lord! So how do I hold on to this joy, cause I want it!?! 



In my search I read Romans 15:13 "Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." What sticks out is that God is our hope, and he supplies our needs. He fills our hearts with joy, hope and peace with the Holy Spirit! It's not something we have to wander around looking for! It's already with us when we accept Christ, because we have the Holy Spirit dwelling in us! And while we wait for Him to show us where he wants us to be we can have peace.

Psalm 16:11 says" You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore. So where ever we're at, on this roller-coaster ride, God knows and he cares. He will bless us with joy in His time, all we have to do is be faithful to him in praying, serving, worshiping the Lord, sharing the love of Jesus, and desiring to learn more about him through his word, the Bible.

I love Colossians 1:10-12, "...that you may walk worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing Him,being fruitful in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; strengthened with all might, according to His glorious power, for all patience and long suffering withjoygiving thanks to the Father who has qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in the light.

So share the JOY! Karey Congo, January 2012

18 January 2012

Learning the Hard Way

Why is it in life that for the most part...we have to learn things the hard way?  What is it that makes this type of learning go so much deeper, so much so that we welcome change in ways we probably would not have welcomed before? 


In some ways we all know the answer to this.  Our hard heartedness or stubborn nature gets the best of us and we refuse to let God lead us in the way the HE KNOWS is best, and we take things into our own hands.  I think this sheds a whole lot of light into the reason why God allows us to go through struggles and experience the hardships of life.  


I can relate fully to the above because I am a bit of a control freak...or maybe the better word is 'creatively anal'.  It is part of the way that God has made me, and although being anal presents challenges...we are those people that God uses to get things planned, organized and executed in a very precise and timely manner.  Yummm...music to my ears.  In my life journey, this part of my personality has been that which motivates me, and yet it has often been my biggest bane.  It is very hard for me to let go and let God.   In fact, I think I probably had my whole life planned out by the time I was five.  Music, marriage, babies, house, Audi (well maybe not an Audi at that time...but close enough), vacations and of course money to make all the above seem flawless and easy.  I'm sure many of you can relate.


And then one day, after more and more years have passed...you wake up and find that things aren't quite falling into place...your plan is not happening as hoped...and as was in my case, there was only one person to blame.  God.  I had crossed every t and doted every i.  I had served him as best I could, stood up for him and professed my faith openly, ministered at my church, went to bible school, prayed, read my bible and journaled.  What was going on?  There were those around me that were reckless not only in their spiritual lives but also in there personal lives and everything seemed to be falling into place for them...so what was going on?  Why was God blessing them and not me?  Was it punishment for something I had done or hadn't done?  


I couldn't understand it...and in some ways I still don't, but I do know one thing undoubtedly...God is always and will always be in pursuit of his children...refining us through trials is part of this pursuit.  I can say one thing for sure now that I'm on the 'other side', and that is that I needed to learn the hard way.  I still do.  I want to be refined by His fire.  I want to learn, and hopefully learn the first time.


But...if I don't, I know that I'll have another chance to learn it the hard way again.  Some might think that makes God mean, I say it makes Him persistent in His pursuit of me.  That makes me smile.

11 January 2012

Something About Rain...

I've been thinking about blogging for many years now.  It was either blogging...or writing a book.  But if you know anything about who I am, you would know that there are many other things that take up most of my time and that are of more importance that book writing!  So on to blogging it is.....


In the past 2 years my life has changed in a radical and elemental way.  There was no warning as to what was coming and it happened within a few minutes.  I became 'Most Satisfied'.  There wasn't a huge parade, there wasn't a lighting storm with thunderous applause...there was just silence and a flood of thankfulness as a tear or two ran down my cheek.  In and instance I was changed...forever.


In the silence of this most amazing moment...my heart, spirit and soul burst forth into a resounding praise that resonated through out my body and I was healed.  I changed from being a person full of bitterness, anxiety, depression, sorrow, doubt and despair into a 'child' who was Most Satisfied.   


              " He is most glorified through us, when we are most satisfied in HIM....
                         ...in the midst of our sufferings"


So what does that mean....to be Most Satisfied in HIM?  That is the full intent of this blog.  It is the theme that will fill these posts throughout the next year or two.  It is the theme that I want you...the followers of this blog to write out and e-mail to me...so I can post your thoughts on this.  It is a place for all of us to share in each other's struggles and bless one another with stories of pain and yet hope.  The fact is that we have all gone through season's of pain...and season's of blessing.  Why not share those experiences and explore the ways that God can help us overcome them...maybe even together!


In life there is lose, there is death, there is pain and suffering.  There are lies spoken and hearts broken...but, for every heart there is rain, spring rain.  For every child...there is rain. There is something about the rain that washes, refreshes, revitalizes and renews us from within.  And for me, the feeling of the rain falling freely onto my face as I look up to the sky is the ultimate symbol of what I think it means to be Most Satisfied.